When i got back from my recent diving trip, Lang Tengah Island on 3/3/2009, it was a tuesday morning, 1am and I went back to the lab after I got some sleep. It was a great day, and I tried to stay positive despite the fact that I was feeling lazy from the holiday.

There were much to do on the day, as I have about 3-4 research projects that is in dire need of my attention, and I have been putting everything aside as I'm a professional procrastinator and immune to guilt attack. I got into an accident, my second major accident in my entire life, after 8-9 years of driving, the first major one happened 2 years ago, on 4/4/2007, and now, 3/3/2009, it happened again. Same scenario. Fortunately, no one was hurt. The incident was quite heated that violence nearly broke out, but I was rational enough despite furious, not to smack the person with a spanar.

So, after a few days thinking about it, I wondered what made a person so angry at you, and what could I have done to reduce the fury. I supposed things might be better if I showed a little more concern on the motorcyclist's welfare, after he flew from his bike. Instead, I was shocked and the phrase "oh my god" went through my head like a zillion times. I figured if I had responded quickly enough, get down from the car and ran to the cyclist and helped him up, asked if he's injured before he started yelling at me, it would at least made a difference in the situation, that he wouldn't have gotten so angry that he wanted to hit me, yet he knew he couldnt instead took my car keys and pissed me off instead.

I was angry at the fact my keys were taken, but now, I'm indifferent. Perhaps it was my fault, perhaps it was a response that I didnt like the feeling of people yelling at me, or bullying me. Last time when someone bumped into my car, he yelled foul languages at me, and scolded me for not being an accommodating driver. He was the one coming out of the junction. I was new to driving, so I took the heat and let him bully me into compensating him, of which, at the time, I didnt have any money. So, I kinda escaped, after all the tongue lashing.

Perhaps my fury sparked because I didnt want to take any crap from anyone, or let anyone bully me, be it my fault or not, because an accident is an accident. I did what I could do at the accident, called the emergency operator, asked if the motorcyclist needed an ambulance or not or if he's injured and did everything I could think of to handle the situation as calmly as I could. yet, now, I feel guilty for not asking how my passanger was feeling, if she was okay from the incident, which I think she was pretty much in shock. I'm really sorry about that.

Anyway, perhaps the most important thing when an accident occurs is to always be concern of the human life first, before starting to blame each other on the cause of accident. These motorcyclists are... of lower capabilities of a developed mind, so maybe drivers should be thoughtful of them first. This is of course, not applicable to the idiots called Rempits. If any driver is unfortunate to come in contact, just hit and drive straight into a police station or if the car is incapacitated, call the police immediately.

I used to blog a lot. There are always something to talk about, something to write, and I would sit in front of the computer, typing and describing everything that went through my head, patiently and in details.

Perhaps after a while, (after 6 years), one kinda get over things. Grew out of it. It's probably an outlet for me to just tell a story or just shout something out, so that it's out of the system and I can move on with life. Still... I'm considering if I should re-start this. I dont know.

WAHAHAHAHA. I FINALLY GOT MY MANUSCRIPT PUBLISHED! YAY!

It's really odd, that when I am here at this blog page, I cant seem to blog. But when I'm away, or busy doing something else, I would have this muse to blog and tell a nice story.

Sigh.. it's so hard to sync blogging ideas to blogging.

Anyway.. about life, I am currently in love with this song by Khalil Fong called "Ai Ai Ai (Love love love)" and i SHALL be learning how to play the guitar version of it, whenever I have the time next. It's going to be Chinese New Year soon, and my closet is entirely cleared of old crappy clothes and left with nothing but nicer pieces of clothes that i even wear soemthing nice to sleep (as i have cleared my closet of all crappy clothes). I bought five pairs of shoes...and I have no idea what's wrong with me. I also bought other things.. which i supposed it would help me look better EXCEPT i manage to put on weight before CNY. hah! great. Oh well...

I am having problems about my Vietnam trip... kinda need to settle my accommodation fees, as well as save up for expenses. Sigh.... this is the consequence of traveling without proper budgeting. then again, i suppose it's the only way to make a trip happen because it FORCES you to do it. Rather than saving all the money aside and never have heart to spend it. First step to making a trip happen, buy the plane tickets. The rest will just HAVE to fall into place because u have taken the first step. :D

I think one of the reasons i could travel as much as I do is because i looked out for promotions.. particularly for airfare and travel package. sometimes, i would even go for early-bird promo for next year's package (geez!). still.. planning is good. u provide an 'insured income' for the resort and they'll be glad that they have a customer. As for me, I have a trip.

This year, apart from the family trip to Ho Chi Minh City, i will also be going on a dive trip in Pulau Lang Tengah. After that, it's truly FULL steam ahead for research and work, all the way till August, where a couple of divers i met in Sipadan last year will be meeting up again for the MOLA-MOLA & MANTA season in BALI! BALI BALI BALI! HURRAH!

still.. that's going to be like another RM2k burnt.. although Renee is giving me the tickets for free. :D Gotta love that girl. Renee is my roommate I met in Sipadan Island and she's an airstewardess for AirAsia. She is giving me this free ticket to Bali so that we can dive together for the mola2. I never thought I would be able to see the sunfish until.. at least i start working or something.

Still.. my MAIN target for now, particularly in travel plan, is my transcontinent trip. I'm flying to London (one way) and slowly inch back the continent until my money depleted and fly home frm the end point. :D and that, i am hoping that I can do it in 2010.

I hate people who takes others for granted, particularly when others care about them. Such un-appreciative notions can be easily seen through lack of effort in REPLYING EMAILS nor even able to spend 3 minutes of their precious time to reply a message or drop A LINE after receiving an email from others just to inform the inconvenience of writing an update to the other person.

I dont like... people who takes me for granted. I dont like people whom i treat as friends to treat me like crap. I just dont think that there is ever a possibility that one cannot find time to inform others that they are busy, and ignore that one email for weeks, while within that weeks of waiting for a reply, several other emails come in to updates and check on the party concerned. I supposed I'm being too emotional on this matter but.. what the heck. At least a reply during christmas or new year from my text would be some sort of acknowledgment. but.. i guess the world does not revolve around ME.

I also didnt like the fact that when I travel, others tag along without helping me PLAN the trip. Even though I have mentioned time and times again, to draft out the itinerary or budget, all i get is.. 'when i have the time'. okayy... when u have the time, read my travel blog adventures then.

I have decided to go on MY OWN backpack trip, and just move along with MY life's plan without these people who just wouldnt help me in realizing a dream instead, just keeping me from living it. So, if u wanna keep dreaming, be my guest. I've got money to save, continent to cross and a world to see. Adventures ahead.. waiting for me. YOU can keep dreaming and stick to your attitude. Just dont stand in my way.

2009 ... it didnt seem to me that it's a good start because i'm so irritable this year. particular at the beginning. oh well.. good or bad, life goes on. i SHALL just continue my life with the good.

2008

What have I done?

It didnt feel like as if I have done anything at all. In fact, it felt like I have wasted an entire year. So... I thought maybe I should think about what are my regrets this year and change to a better person next year. :D

What I couldnt achieve this year, in terms of life, was to finish my MSc studies and graduate. Partly was due to my inability & incompetence to produce enough manuscripts to expedite my examination process. Other than that, it was also due to my own lack of seriousness towards my work and thesis submission which is why NOW, i am stuck at this stage and end up here. As of end of 2008, I have no savings to save my life, and have bad financial management (not to mention time management) so, I would dare to say that my biggest regret is to have never planned my time and expenses properly.

My 2009 resolution would be to discipline myself all over again, to teach myself responsibilities of being an ADULT. In short, to grow up.

2008 was an interesting year in terms of travel. I supposed I had my priorities wrong when I spent my money on taking 5 diving specialties and went to Sipadan... Although I wanted to gain my Master scuba diver license this year, but I am unable to afford the EFR license therefore, it has been postponed to a later date, hopefully in 2009. Then again, since 2009 is the beginning of my financial crisis year, I supposed it's rational and logical to put diving activities aside despite the fact that I have already bought tickets to Kuala Terengganu to dive in Pulau Lang Tengah, supposedly the best local diving spot in the peninsular. I shall ponder about that decision.
2009 trips are all lined up. I have a family trip in February, possible diving trip in end of Feb, and POSSIBLY another diving trip to see the Sunfish in Bali as promised to a new found friend from my Sipadan trip. :D Well... I supposed we all should just go with the flow and concentrate on things that mattered first i.e. my studies and graduation.

Next big event in life for me, other than graduations, is my see the world or die trying in shoe string budget. :D I've been postponing this plan for almost 2 years now.. and i guess it's time for me to seriously plan this, and see it come to reality in.. maybe 2010/2011. Planning is the first step to making dreams come true. :D London here I come.

Other than that, it's the usual resolutions like... learning something new, stay healthy, and the newest addition this year is.. to read more books. I think i barely read a story book this year. this is sad.

So, 2009 will change things. :D

I wonder how many countries can I go to with RM20,000.