i am probably crazy. these few days, i've been wasting my life away on watching Jdrama. in few days, i've watched Absolute Robot (Zettai Kareshi), Hana Kimi (twice), Nobuta wo produce, and now in the middle of "Attention Please". i dont really know how i watched it, but it revolves around on some fast forwarding.

anyway, today, we had lunch with Prof Kim and Prof Yoon. It makes me wonder... when can I ever finish my work and when WILL I EVER quickly get the motivation to finish my thesis? why cant i work on my thesis. even as i blog right now, my mind is nagging me about my undone thesis, and yet, my body refuse to turn to my left and look at the pile of journals that i have already standby for reading. I should take a shot of an aerial view of my room. ever seen a typhoon?

today's debate on the fuel price was irritating as hell. watching the BN candidate salivate like a freaking idiot, it looks to me, the one thing that was missing from him being seen to have epilepsy is he should be lying on the floor. Isn't it irritating? can't you just ANSWER the questions?

another irritating thing that happened was, this friend that i occasionally dislike (she always do something similar to my plans and 'beat me at my game' when i dont even know that we're actually 'competing'). like... when i said i am learning a language, she went for language classes too. and when i started diving and asked her to join me, she said she's not interested and 2 months later, went with a bunch of guys for a diving course. and also, when i bought my first underwater camera, she bought an underwater housing for her camera too. not to mention, when i said i'm going on a diving trip this year, SHE went on a diving trip spree. when i said i am doing my masters and am happy doing it, she suddenly decided (in few weeks) that she would plan to quit her job and join another friend to go australia to study. and when she found out i was planning to do my PhD, she told me, for the amount of years that I have studied, i would have gotten a medical degree anyway. i dont really know what's wrong with me to have consider a person like this a friend.

perhaps her wishlist is to get my life's plan and do whatever i have done or have plans to do. i feel that i'm being copied. i like being weird/unpredictable i.e. which to me, is a unique characteristic. i appreciate that value in me and i dont really care if anyone else finds me common/unoriginal. but WHY does a person like me, would need to have a copy cat doing everything i do and make everything that i put effort into, like my dreams/passions/interests/achievements look like something it can be easily done? i mean.. is it that fun to undermine other people's life? that being me is SO easy? and she can be HER and also be ME at the same time and that she's twice the person i am?

perhaps i should make a list for her so that she can tick whichever that she has done and i have not.

... and i thought i missed the old days we had with all the bowling games, drinks and food. forget it.